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maybe thats why people retake a levels so many times.

THEY ARE ADDICTED TO EXAMS lol.

Damn fun la today GP paper. Choose 1 topic and go on and on and on about my theories and nonsense.

I chose the topic, "As long as people in the public eye do their job well, it doesnt matter wad they do in private."

Basically i tok about what is that they defined as "wrong". Den tok about their quality of work is nt dependent on their personal lifestyle. But society doesnt want the wrong ideas like "beg borrow steal, obtain it, regardless" to circulate. Tok about human being imperfect. Discuss about society de mentality all the bullshit.

Write damn lot la, at first still scared cannot meet the 500 word limit lol.

Den paper 2 dunno la. Everytime i also think easy LOL, but everytime come back GP result "S" haha.

I think my language poor, cannot convey my msg and ideas across. haha.

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*some time have passed*

After taking a shower, i realise my mistakes for GP. I think i didn ask to the point for most parts of it lol.

And at times, mention alot of things but nvr go and substantiate it with facts or strong argumentative points.

Hmmm.

Even after reading the prologue of fortune arterial so many times ( first time was raw jap DEMO version, 2nd time when i gt the game itself read with AGTH + atlas, 3rd time was the comic, 4th time is now de english 1 ), i cannot accept the fact that kouhei decided to keep his memories, which would otherwise be erased for some certain reason, via some certain way.

I think i didn convery my msg properly again with my lousy sentencing.

I understand what made him change his mind, its very very reasonable and realistic. He came to 智館学院 which gt a hostel, instead of moving with his parents like he did 20 times before becos he wan to make frens, and stop being a 'migratory bird'. But when faced with some unpleasant thing, he freaked out and chose to run away from it. Take the easy way out and try to forget it. If he loses his memory of skool so far, in essence he jus simply transfer skool again. Easy for him. Lose all the frens and experience he made only wad. But by doing so, he is slapping himself in the face for goin against the decision he made when he came to this skool. Only after repeated reminders den helped him make the right choice that he already know but nt strong enuff to make.

But i feel that just by changing his mind, he 'lost'. To whom? Nobody. Jus that feeling. Like say..... RRRR cant think of an example but i ALWAYS get this kinda feeling de leh. Precisely so, that i gt an issue over his change of decision.

Hmmmmmmm.......

Simply put, i think its becos im a bad loser lol.

But this feeling i get is the reason why i dun wan to study for my a levels 'AT THIS STAGE', nt say at the start la.

At the start nvr study is totally my fault la. Laziness, lack of discipline, no attention span are nt excuses. Im sayin these are my faults and by pointing them out im nt saying i cant be blame becos of these reasons.

Its like a murderer honestly saying, 'I killed him cos i he kicked my dog.". And by saying this he doesnt mean he wants to escape his crime with a reason. He knows hes wrong and would accept any form of punishment as deem appropriate. And so happen some1 ask him, why do it? So he jus said the truth.

Anyway tokin about this LATE STAGE of a levels, becos its nt like a miracle will happen and with ONE DAY of mugging before exam, i can top the country, thats why i say im nt studying. And cos i said that, if i study now, i would be like admitting defeat. DEFEAT OF I DUNNO WAD SORT. ( Eh, isnt this an example that im looking for earlier? )

Maybe this bad habit of mine should be changed.

But that brings me to think of instances where i rmb i said something like "but at least show some effort, i dun see that from you" to some other people for some other different scenarios.

Its like 1 sec down the shot clock, the team is down by 2 points. A three point wun jus tie the game, it will be won. But with only 1 sec u dun even know if u gt enuff time the take the shot. Wads worst, you haven even cross the halfway line. u have to make the choice of to shoot or jus giv up. I would jus give up. Some people will think y nt jus try? No harm. And if it does actually go in, one has jus attained immortality.

I think if it does go in, the credit goes to luck and none to effort.

The above statement obviously makes no sense.

I think i jus spout out dunno how many hundreds words worth of rubbish. Time for a swim.