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Jus changed calculator's battery. Do i need french curve? Where is my pencilbox? Wad should i wear? How to go NJ? Nvm, go cook some egg first. How about watching some tv? Time for a nap.

Afterall, i literally didn study for a levels at all.

Den why retake it? Even after the extent to request for late late entry. Why didn i study hard.

Any reasons would jus be an excuse. I was jus lazy, i cant make myself study.

The purpose to retake a levels was to improve my chances of getting a certain scholarship. Due to age restriction and stuff. This year was the last year to retake a levels. So i jus went ahead and try to apply to retake alevels.

I realise my business ideas appear whenever i have to study. Its like, i need to study well to get a decent job in the future. But i dun wan to study. So how else? So i come up with random solutions to solve the problem.

And when exams are over, or when i decide that i can stop studying for wadsoever reason i justify myself with. The ideas jus stop there. Its like daydreaming.

I look at myself now. I think im in a mess.

5 years from now. I think i'll be exactly the same. Living with my parents, watching anime reading manga, prolly get a part-time job that pays $6 an hour, occasionally play some basketball, play lan, go swimming. No change.

Perhaps 5 years later, i might even take over my fathers job. Working 12 hours a day every week. Perhaps sunday can close shop at 2pm. Prolly watch some TV and cook some dinner and go to sleep.

Terrible.

Im afraid to make decision for myself. It seems that i lack determination, weak willpower. Unable to perserve.

I lost 4kg. I had a megamcspicy and im 80kg now. gained 3kg. Told myself to chiong for alevels. But gave up after 1 month. Business ideas also all talk no action.

I think i should jus learn a skill and get a job with that skill. Life would be more simple like that.