teaching.

There are only so little things that makes me angry/sad. And one of it is about teaching. I love to teach. Many things i do also gt relation with my passion for teaching. When i announce things i know to every1, like a news or a fact of the day, its nt that im showing off my knowledge or im a big mouth, i jus want every1 who didn know to know, hence in this way, im 'teaching' them. Jus like how i like to tell alwyn about new mnemonic everytime i think of a new 1.

I become better at stuff, when i teach. For example, dota started out as 'jus another game'. But i continued to play for 3 years. Its becos im the best in my class in sec skool. ( maybe guoxi or maung kaung will disagree, but who cares about this anymore? ) So those who play dota all come get advice and tips frm me. I gave lectures and propose theories. I like. So i will try to play better, find out more gay stuff, so i get better at it, to be more qualified to teach. My sec skool maths too. Alot of ppl ask me so i keep chiongin to get better at it.

But my results in jc all so suxy. So nobody will wan to find a U'er for help. So i no motivation to mug more. But recently, i chiong alot of chem, cos cc keep praising me. And SOMETIMES, some ppl ask me question i can answer. So i practise more, in case any1 else ask me again. Phy nt so motivated la, but couple days back, i get a lil motivation, cos yangxi ask me question he duno and i know lol. Econs also couple days ago get some motivation too. Only left maths, but my maths really so lan, i cannot help ANYONE.

And when i teach i also wun gei kiang. If im nt sure, i would tell the person to go check it out with some1 else too. Sometimes i get my concepts might be wrong, but i will stubbornly insist. Den check it out later when i reach home haha.

Becos of my love for teaching, when ppl dun ask me questions, i get pissed off. Nt their fault la, jus the fault of my teaching cells. Quite recently, i heard alot of questions exchanged. 90% of them i all know the answer. But no1 ask me, so i gt very pissed off.

At times, i hav to 'accidentally' say out the answer and shock them, den will they come and listen to my lecture. I feel like im.... dunno wad in eng... xia jian'in myself. Ppl dun wan my help i still self invite myself to the discussion. Questions that i spot, ppl nvr ask also tell them. Provide ppl with more info without gettin anything in return. Im nt tryin to make myself look so... argh also dunno wad in eng... chinese also dunno. Argh i think u get wad im tryin to say. But i jus like to do that. I dun wan any1 to nt know anything that i know. I believe in collective knowledge pool.

But sometimes when my efforts dun get appreciated, so some ppl find it irritating/dada, in other words unnecessary, i get pissed off again.

I gt pissed off over this alot in this and past year. Sometimes my lectures are too long-winded or stuff, too much rubbish content. But its only becos im enjoying the process mah =(.

*NOTICE* Im nt angry with any1 over this matter, really. Its every1's own right to choose who to ask question. And i shouldn expect my victims to enjoy my lecture as much as i do. I sleep in so many lectures that i deserve to be spanked.

So hence, frm now on, i hav adopted heck care policy. If u guys rmb'ed, sometimes i will go, ' i gt an discovery but i'll tell u only if u ask ' and similar stuff along the line. So if no1 ask me i dun care liao, jus make my health worst only. But sometimes really cannot tahan must teach, den i will realise and slap myself.

*NOTICE* Im not typing this today cos something liddat happened today. I hav always wanted to blog about this issue since nong time, but dun feel like it. Den past few days no entry so no topics liao so type this. And i repeat im nt angry, anymore, that is. I could hav been, but nt anymore. Dun come askin me questions cos i sad about this. I would appreciate even if u ask me question becos im the only ard. Jus dun walk 5km to ask some1 else like some ppl. But i shall let bygones be bygones. Its really nt their fault in the first place. Blame my bad academic results. Bad reputation.